edit: Double post. Also, dead forum.
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Been away a long time.
EDIT: FUUUUUU- forum prevented me from edits.
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I was screwing around doing some research on the game related aspects of, uh, the game, and came across something that prompted this.
>:[ Sionnan! Ugh, you combine short awesomeness with a constant mental chorus of "Augh, dammit, not again!"
Better stretch my legs... Sure has been a while.
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@Sionnan: I always love it when people actually work chess metaphors in. even though I suck royally at chess.
^^ what he said.
If you feel that there's no way things could get any worse, that means things will only get better!
...That, or you're possibly being fed on by a dementor. Eat some chocolate, stat.
i would but tbh these updates have pretty much soured me on writing for this fandom! (not that, you know, I actually contribute anything, given my writing speed is akin to a sprinting tortoise)
I'm angry right now.
Kanaya is dead, I'm tired, and a memory loss something-or-other just ate the last third or so of this chapter that no longer exists because I NEED TO GO TO BED.
There was going to be a quip here about how long Indystuck is getting, but right now, I'm just happy it's not in a canon that threatens it with AU-idation through the metric crapton of deaths.
So yes, you got gypped out of a segment of Tim because I'm angry and tired. Sorry.
Fanfics (There's a bunch):
God, guys, that update is actually making me shake a little. I think I'm grieving for a fictional character.
... Uugh. In my defense, this was written in fifteen minutes at like 3 in the morning. 0_o
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Ides of March
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Aaaaaaaaaand one more for the road.
Goddamn Troll Kids
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linguisticDoctor, I love you.
I Am Not Like You
The moment when you can no longer hide from your own sins is always painful. All at once the weight hits you, and those little lies you told yourself sweep after sweep are broken.
Some things you can justify, and from a logical standpoint even accept. But they still haunt you, clinging to your being like a stain. Lighter then the other ones, but their were so many of them. All the trolls you fed to your Lusus, all the death you caused. It may have had to be done, but you enjoyed it far too much. Feferi was even worse off, and she never enjoyed feeding her monster.
A few sins were you trying to help, honestly they were! Tavros was always a pathetic troll. That point was never argued even by those that pointed fingers at you. You pushed him, set him up to come into his own and come out of his shell again and again. Every time, every single time he disappointed you. You even let yourself bleed out and suffer what is to date the greatest physical agony you have ever felt. The coward just let you bleed, after you sacrificed so much. He was the cruel one! Him, him!
You tried again with John, and he was everything you could hope for. So much potential, so much promise! He just needed a single push. So you set him up to reach the god levels like you did. It's true you lied about what what that meant, but you gave him a choice none the less. You even spared him the pain you went through by making sure he slept through the death. That counts for something, right...right?
Other sins were you being petty. Tavros pissed you off, and refused to grow a spine. So you revoked his spine privileges permanently. When Aradia made you pay for that, the souls she set on you came dangerously close to seeing the weight of your sins. Naturally that was a hard hit. You tell yourself you killed Aradia because you wanted revenge, but the truth is now you were scared. If she set the souls on you again it would crush your illusions. You were terrified of that revelation.
"...I am not...like you..."
Terezi shut you out, and it hurt. Saying sorry wasn't in either of your vocabularies so you never patched things up. But that she would expose you and get your eye and hand blown off was way too far! Even worse, that could have killed you. She was going to pay.
"...I am not like you."
Then at last their is your new sin. The big black stain that is still fresh on you. That bastard Tavros gets a spine NOW of all times! You admit after you slew him it didn't have to end the way it did. You could have subdued him with little trouble, you WERE a lot stronger then him after all. But no, the idiot had tried to kill you while you were helping everyone. Yes you had created the demon, but did he not understand that was inevitable? You had enough, the useless moron was history.
"I am not like you."
Then you decide to meet up with the others. You had to tell them about Tavros before they found the body. You were not going to let your side go unheard. But that was a tale no one would hear. Eridan made sure of that.
"I am not like you!"
It didn't take long to discover what had transpired. The idiot had gone on a killing spree. It had started with Feferi, then Kanaya, and soon? Well, let's just say she was now one of only two trolls in existence. (Unless Aradia is magically alive somehow.)
"I am NOT LIKE YOU!"
The moron had made some grand speech to her about the whole thing, talking about how it was necessary and he had to do it. About his while plan to join the demon, as if that would really work. All the while you just stood their gaping as the truth hits you. Them, all of them, they're gone. Tavros stung a bit, but losing everyone else was like a punch in the gut.
"I AM NOT LIKE YOU!"
Then the moron did the stupidest thing he had done all day. And considering what a day it had been that was saying something. When he saw you were just gaping while he rambled about his plan he made the remark. That you could not judge because you were 'just like him.'
"I AM NOT LIKE YOOOOOOOOU!"
All you could see was red. This was not the hate of a black romance, but something much deeper. You hated the thing he was, and you hated the all too similar thing you also were. And above all, you hated Eridan for showing you the horrid truth that you could only honestly claim to be a little better than this...utter tool. That was not ok, not by a longshot.
"NOT! NOT! NOT! NOT! I AM NOT!!!"
You don't bother with the dice, and he doesn't have time to raise his wand. You can teleport, stupid! It's been about twenty-five minutes since you started beating the hell out of him while you screamed at him at the top of your lungs. It's been about ten since you last saw him show any sign he was alive. Your hands are coated in blood. Mostly his, but your sure his bones cut into you once or twice. You don't care, you're not done yet.
"NOT LIKE YOU! NOT LIKE YOU! I AM NOT ANYTHING LIKE YOU!"
Tears stream down your face. Tears for the horrors of yourself you now must face. Tears for all the missed chances to change forever gone now. Tears for the trolls you cared for now gone through his arrogant foolishness and your negligence. Tears for the deep pain you had all your life you only now see as it reaches critical mass.
"NOOOOOOOOT! I'M NOOOOOOOOT! I CAN'T BE!"
You would read over the old chat logs, and impersonate the other trolls for now. Because if you have to explain what happened to the humans right now your sure it will destroy you. And your not going to do that. By all that you are, you WILL do right, if only once. Then you'll...you don't even know what next. Perhaps nothing, since you might not survive. But damn it, your not letting everything we all worked for be for nothing! You were going to save the humans and stop the demon...or die trying. Just once, you really were going to be the hero.
"...I'm not...I'm not..."
...just as soon as you are done turning what is left of Eridan into a purple smear on the ground.
EVERYTHING I TOUCH TURNS TO GRIMDARK!
Aww man. So much deliscious sadness.
lD, you are magnificent.
Nox, I will glee happily if that actually happens.
Though I guess I just kind of jinx'd it.
MOVE ALONG, PEOPLE! NOTHING TO SEE HERE!
Pesterchum: paperConsumer (deviceJuggler is my troll account)
linguisticDoctor you are the prince or princess of my SOUL
those were beautiful. Your characterisation of all the trolls is perfect, and the scene with Terezi and Tavros was really moving. You fleshed out their relationship nicely, given that we haven't seen much of their interaction. (You have also raised the horrible thought in my mind that Vriska is going to blame Eridan for what happened to Tavros and get away with it again. And I LIKE her but I don't want that to happen, argh)
also you have no idea how much I laughed at "hipster wizard". 3333
This prince blushes!
...then realizes that title puts him close to Eridan oh noooooooooooo
Thank you especially for the compliment on the Terezi/Tavros thing; it's a read I'm surprised most people don't get off their relationship, but I think she's always seen him as sort of a "little buddy" archetype--I got the sense that she really meant it when she told him in Alterniabound that believing in Rufio was a good thing. She might laugh when he falls down, but Terezi would be the type to help him back up once the fun has been had, it always seemed to me.
One of the reasons she's my favorite troll (even though my patron is Sollux).
As for Vriska, I'll be really surprised if she doesn't take the tack of "oh no, it was totally Eridan! ::::O I was asleep and dreaming of silly human makeout times, wooooo". And, frankly, I think most of the trolls will buy it, given Eridan's SITH LORD OVERDRIVE he just pulled.
But I think Terezi will be watching, and she'll be waiting. JUST1C3 W1LL OCCUR. Like Vriska herself said, if you fuck with Terezi Pyrope, or the people she likes, you are so screwed.
(....course now that I say that watch Hussie have Vriska just straight-up waste her. )